Entries by Janel Breitenstein

Not the Way I Saw It Going in My Head: On Second-Guessing Decisions

So often I tend to think, “If I’m trusting God, leaning not on my own understanding, praying for wisdom, and all that excellent jazz—somehow, I will be shielded from failure.” And of course, there’s some truth in there.

But in that situation, I had to admit that like the Israelites rushing into battle with the Ark of the Covenant (1 Samuel 4), I was using God as a protective layer, a guarantee.

Why Isn’t God Doing Something Big Through Me?

We’re often told to dream big for God, or that “God wants to do something big through you!” Perhaps we picture ourselves vaulting over jungles to an unreached people group, or running a homeless ministry, or a crazy amount of colleagues becoming Christians because of our influence.

But I’ve come to the realisation that sometimes, my desire to do something big for God has been, at times, just a desire not to be small.